It's Not Bad to be an EMO

Many say that I'm EMO. I guess it's because of my hairstyle and the way I dress up sometimes. My hair covers my eyes and I usually wear black t-shirt and pants. However, is it really the essence of being an emo? And, am I really an emo?
Being an emo doesn't mean that you should wear what emo bands wear. It doesn't mean that you should do what emo girls and boys do. EMO is short term for EMOTIONAL. Thus, it is more on internals than externals. What I mean is, you can't determine an emo person by merely looking at his outside looks, you should dig deeper and know that person's inside.
I don't know why I'm like this. No one can understand me. Even my friends said that I'm different sometimes. It's as if I'm in another world.
"Don't be so emo," one of my friends told me.
Can I change myself? Why don't they spend time with me when I needed them so that they will know why I'm like this? I have lots of problems. God knows that. There is a possibility that our family will be broken.
Do you want to know why?
It's because of our father's infidelity to our mother and to us, his children. He fooled us! That's why, I really can't prevent my tears everytime it wants to escape my eyes. It is the only way to lessen the pain I'm feeling right now. I hope it would ease soon.
No wonder why I like black. Black means sorrow, grief, sadness, misery... Because everytime I cry, I feel like I'm a new person. A new Adoreland Basilan. I guess it's because tears wash away all the pains, heartaches and bad feelings.
It's not bad to be an emo, right? T_T